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I’ve been having dreams about being pregnant. I looked up what some of the meanings behind it could be and I found:
“To dream that you are pregnant symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. Being pregnant in your dream may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal. Alternatively, if you are trying to get pregnant, then the dream may be a wish fulfillment. If you are not trying to get pregnant, but dream that you are, then it symbolizes fear of new responsibilities.”
and
“At its core, this dream is about creativity,” Mead says. “Women literally create new life out of their bodies. If you dream of being pregnant, you are likely craving time to be creative, or ‘dreaming up’ a new and exciting creative project that will come into existence down the line. This could be as small as a home-based renovation project or a large-scale artistic work.”
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My body is a temple, from this day forth I vow to God and myself to keep my body pure from impurities and toxins.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.
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I’m going to start working on my first tattoo. Turning it from wonderful thoughts into actual reality. Transferring it from my mind onto paper, then onto skin.
It will be beautiful.
You’ll see.
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This year will be the best year so far. I’m determined to follow through with keeping my life goals on track.
Here are my New Year’s resolutions for this year:
- Quit smoking
- Eat healthier than I already have been
- Up my workouts and create an intense workout regimen
- Stay more focused in school/don’t procrastinate when it comes to school
- Go to church regularly, get more involved
- Start doing volunteer work
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Hah, so some evidence shows me that you’re probably just like all the other douchebags I’ve talked to. That’s just peachy.
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I hate it when parents kick their kids out. Parents are suppose to be there for them no matter what, especially through the hard times.
Uuugggh!!!
I just need my fucking shit back dammit and I’ll leave you be!!! I don’t want anything to do with you anymore if you’re just going to be an asshole! I’ll keep bugging you until I get my stuff back from your house. I’ll even bother your best friend if I have to seeing as you won’t respond to me. I’m moving soon and will take drastic measures if need be.
I don’t play around when it comes to my things.
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Today I want to The Big Fresno Fair with some of my best/close friends. I had a blast. We were there the entire day from 11:30am-11pm. It was so damn hot during the day, I thought I was going to die a few times. lol It was a great day with lots of adventures and fun. It feels good to have fresh and beautiful memories with my friends.
I got to see Billy Idol at the fair. It was definitely epic at best. When he finally played White Wedding it was like an orgasm of joy and excitement. Bahahaha : )
All around, one hell of an awesome day. <3
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My life is unraveling so quickly, there’s so many bumps in the road. There’s too much going on. It’s just so much to handle all at once. Why do people have to be so difficult?! It’s driving me mad. All these thoughts constantly running through my head. The stress and anxiety just tend to turn into depression these days. And no one seems to understand where I come from. They don’t see it the way I do.
I just need an escape. I need to get away from this madness for a bit. I want to start fresh. I want to be reborn.
Ya know what sucks?
When you’re trying to tell someone nicely that you don’t want to date them. That you’d rather just have a strictly friends relationship. Yet they’re just not having it.
You continue to explain to them nicely, yet they just don’t seem to get it.
D :
Gaaaah!
lol, fml and me always being too nice.
